Friday, July 22, 2005

Is it ever acceptable to be disrespectful?

When does it become okay to be disrespectful...? And is there too far once it starts?... Because who is to judge... One insult to one person, maybe a much worse to another... Right? So there is no scientific method ... Correct? Which means there cannot be an absolute... But there must be a line or an area that disrespectful is okay, because I see people (NOT ME) get away with it, time and time again... On that same note... Aren't loved ones supposed to be less susceptible to the affects of harsh words from another loved one, knowing ,oddly enough, that no matter how horrid the WORDS are, they are said out of love?... Why when you explain to someone (or at least try) that they have hurt you... They perceive it as an attack... And then... Which is the last thing you need at the moment, you are attacked almost instantly?.... All you are looking for is a little understanding, a few kinds words, soothing things (maybe its that whole Freudian thing, I doubt it though he was a sick Fuck)... Yet you are retaliated against... When you feel miserable, isn't the person in your life, supposed to be able to read that, and react in such a way, as to contradict it?... I know I do... Or at least try...
Maybe its human nature... Maybe its just my nature... But if you insult me... To an extent... Repeatedly.... There is a certain.... (I Don't know) "threshold" (if you will) where my insults start coming... And there is no limits and no holds barred when I get started... And I guess that's why I end up the bad guy.... But I'm not a monster! ... Or am I?...
I will miss the people... I love... That will never understand me... But I cannot change what I know is morally correct about me...
because I know there is so little.

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

I have no room for liars

Don't you hate people that bold face lie to you, and when you let them know that you know what they've done they try to make you think that you are crazy... I had a friend send me a picture of my I guess "ex" girlfriend, while we were trying to work out our problems, saying "dude isn't this your girlfriend" she's on a singles site and has been since (and he gave me a specific date). I wrote her an email explaining simply that, that hurt me and I got a nasty reply telling me I'm delusional... Watch out for the sheep boys there is no such thing... Its a suit that they put on when they want something and take off when you are not around

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Point of Reference

two-faced (tfst)adj.
Having two faces or surfaces.
Hypocritical or double-dealing; deceitful.
two-faced·ly (-fsd-l, -fstl) adv. two-faced·ness n.[Download Now or Buy the Book]
Source: The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth EditionCopyright © 2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company.Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.
two-faced
adj 1: marked by deliberate deceptiveness especially by pretending one set of feelings and acting under the influence of another; "she was a deceitful scheming little thing"- Israel Zangwill; "a double-dealing double agent"; "a double-faced infernal traitor and schemer"- W.M.Thackeray [syn: ambidextrous, deceitful, double-dealing, duplicitous, Janus-faced, double-faced, double-tongued] 2: having two faces--one looking to the future and one to the past; "Janus the two-faced god" [syn: Janus-faced]

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Monday, July 18, 2005

TWO FACED LIAR

What kind of person belongs to a singles place while trying to patch up their existing relationship? And then starts a fight to relieve guilt?

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ABANDONMENT

a·ban·don ( P ) Pronunciation Key (-bndn)tr.v. a·ban·doned, a·ban·don·ing, a·ban·dons
To withdraw one's support or help from, especially in spite of duty, allegiance, or responsibility; desert: abandon a friend in trouble.
To give up by leaving or ceasing to operate or inhabit, especially as a result of danger or other impending threat: abandoned the ship.
To surrender one's claim to, right to, or interest in; give up entirely. See Synonyms at relinquish.
To cease trying to continue; desist from: abandoned the search for the missing hiker.
To yield (oneself) completely, as to emotion.

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Saturday, July 16, 2005

America caged?


Look a Bald Eagle behind bars ironic isn't it, or is it?

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Friday, July 15, 2005

Car Crash

I can't say too much because this is a public website and I don't want any legal implications, but I was in a hell of a car accident yesterday.... Destroyed my car... I'm in some serious pain.... I wonder if the other people feel the same way... I know they are okay I asked enough yesterday... I can't even remember what the fuck happened all I know is this is going to cost an awful lot of money I don't have.. And I need a new car... But an accident like that makes you feel like you never want to drive again.

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Schizophrenic

Almost a year ago to the day I acted a fool, I insulted tormented and verbally abused someone who didn't deserve it ... I made insults and comment's about someone and their loved ones that were disgusting and obnoxious... The worst part about it was this person was showing me the way to my dreams whether or not they realized it... I have never forgot the simple lessons they taught... I am at a crossroads ... I have acted such a way numerous other times in my life but never has someone been so adamant as to not accept my repeated apology... Not that the people in my past ever should have but they did, however this person simply... Clearly refuses... The refusal has taught me more than any acceptance of an apology ever could have and believe it or not I Thank you for it... Since I believe that the lesson that was taught HAS been learned :this is another plea for forgiveness... "I fucked up ... I should not have acted like a psychotic child... It's my fault and ONLY my fault... I apologize to you, to your father and anyone else that my unthought obnoxious words offended..." Whether or not you want to acknowledge that you read this is, of course, up to you... But I hold no ill will toward you (or at least very little, you are human) go in peace... Good luck and I'll chase my dream without you, always Remembering the lessons that were taught, the direct, and the indirect ones.
On second thought UP YOURS DICK HA HA HA HAH A

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Monday, July 11, 2005

Dennis Miller II

My mistake its comments in his blog... If he cared he would delete them, I suppose, he's a little more busy than I am

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Dennis Miller

I just left the Dennis Miller website what a mess... The message board gets clogged with retards... That's the biggest fear... There is even a guy... Loser... In there trying to plug his book, he left his real name, tried writing to Dennis himself (ha ha ha ha ) and begged for a spot on his TV show to plug his book... No parameters... To top it off... And this is the kicker... Well not yet... But first off on the layers to top it off... He got no response (except ridicule from the regs) so he typed or pasted pages of his book in the message board (someone responded that he may sell one or two if he didn't paste the whole thing there, quite humorous) and the real topper offer... IT WAS A COMPLETE RIPOFF of DENNIS MILLER HA HA HA AH ... Yeah hang in there Chucky you are on your way...

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Still have done nothing

I still have yet to call anyone or do anything in regards to the bands I have begun communication with, although they have yet to gimme a ringy dingy either... So that can tell you how excited they are to have me come around... Oh well I've got a couple of leads one from a friend and one just from surfing the net... Maybe I'll call tomorrow

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Sunday, July 10, 2005

What am I doing

Well I never returned any phone calls to any bands that I talked too... I don't know... Nothing really turned me on enough to get me outta bed... I contacted another band by email, I have never heard of them or their stuff but the pictures look like they are about my age... Hopefully the music taste is close but you never know... Maybe I'll just quit all together and fade away into the murky waters of adulthood and be boring and bland for the rest of my days...

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

Different seasons

I was recently getting more more bitter about not hearing from any of my friends for such a long time, probably unjust anyway but nevertheless I caught myself thinking that I had done a lot for everyone and always had and now that I have almost selfdestructed everyone has abandoned me an headed for the hills... I thought of the wrongs that were done to me over the years that I never even addressed never mind held a grudge... Things that were done to me in clear thought with no foreign chemicals leading them amiss... It was turning up the heat in my mind saying screw everyone and people suck... Obviously I don't understand them and they don't understand me... People are not what I thought and forget it... Who do I trust me that's who... When low and behold... A very dear friend, that I wronged, who has never wronged me, stopped by.... We had a nice long conversation... About "THINGS" and nothing... He ended the conversation by telling me he loved me and that the force was with me... I told him to drive safe... He told me he was eternal... I told him I used to be too

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

TOO BAD

Some day I hope your blindness fades ... As my sight does.

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Monday, July 04, 2005

Independence Day

Ahh the fourth of July.... Time to celebrate the Freedom that our Fathers and Grandfathers and now Brothers have died protecting and providing... Should be a day of remembering, celebrating, and partying up due too the summer weather and the occasion... But why does it seam like you have more laws today than most other days of the year? (excluding the other holidays) more traffic stops, more DUI checks (don't get me started) more seatbelt checks (really don't get me started there), more checks all around... Is it to keep people safe? Or is to keep people in line? There is a very fine line between the two and I am an admirer of the USA and what it stands for, but I am disappointed in the distance we are not keeping from that line, I do however believe we got this close to the line (at least for the most part) with good intentions... But this is not , at least in my mind, what are four fathers had in mind... Again I implore you if what someone is doing is bothering you... Leave... Do not start a crusade to make a new law... Think of the consequences... Such as fireworks being ILLEGAL on the fourth of July...

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Late night early morning

I was pretty happy last night when I finished this damn web page... Come to find out I screwed the code up... I could no longer post blogs.. So I ceased the opportunity of being woken up this morning... And rewrote the entire thing... Kind of... So now tell me what you think...

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Finally

Made some cool (at least I think so) changes on my web page... Let me know what you think... Also the BIRTH link is my first attempt at an intro, you can check that out too but it prolly won't be there long... Finally done for now... Nap time

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

Hospitals

Well I got the call from my brother... He told me I was an Uncle... I asked him if he needed anything... And he asked for a cheeseburger, figures... I brought him his cheeseburger... I saw my new nephew, very cute... I saw his wife... Nobody said shit... There is something else going on here but I don't care... I saw the kid, everybody was cool, life back to what I have grown to know and hate as normal...

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

Breaking news

My brother and his wife are at the hospital she's having the baby.... Nobody called me... My brother hasn't taken my calls since I yelled at his wife over the phone... Kinda makes you take a step back... Doesn't it?

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Whelp

I called the band I was hoping to get an audition with again... Talked to the one guy... They are all 20 y/o... Should I let that bother me? I dunno.... I guess it's worth checking out... We had a really good conversation, it sounds like we are heading in the same direction musically, but I always have my reservations about age differences... The last band I went and checked out, the kids were 18 and 19 they just looked like babies... It's not like I 've ruled them out yet either...

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FOURTH OF JULY WEEKEND

No work.. No obligations.... Just rest... I still have to call the guy back about the band... Probably do that right after I go to my vocal coach, from 2-3pm... Maybe they practice later I can go check them out... They said they were on their third or fourth professional album, so you would think that they would have some recordings on the web somewhere but they didn't mention it... hmmm

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Friday, July 01, 2005

WHY WHY WHY

Now I haven't heard from the person that upset me the other day since... I guess you could say to yourself... hmm well... GOOD... however... no response or even an attempt at one kinda points in the direction that they are upset with me.. which inturn makes me more upset... it makes no sense I know... but it irritates me when I say that someone upsets me... and the first words outta that someone (any someone) are "well you upset me"

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FUNNY UPDATE

Well I called the band I wanted an audition with today... I got his machine... He returned the call and got mine... Sounded like a cool guy though... Hopefully he's not 13... He told me to call around ten, in his message, so that is what I will do... I'll keep you posted

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