Thursday, November 24, 2005
Well I saw a lot of faces from where I used to work... It was nice to get the warm reception... Missed a few people that I would have liked too see... It really brought to light how much I missed the people, 'specially the forgeshop boys, I wonder if there's anyone left looking out for them, I wonder if I'll ever be so close with people I work with again... I mean these people watched me grow up, everything changes I guess for better or worse... There are parts of that place that I will miss forever... I however don't miss "the maniac"... I wish I coulda had a few drinks with everyone, maybe if everyone gets together before Christmas and I am still a free bird I'll arrange for a ride.... As far as my buddy that had a little mishap outside of the bar, my thoughts and prayers are with you, I wish you all the best and hang in there, its gonna be a rough year... Take care of yourself all you guys take care of yourselves and remember to mother fuck that crazy bastard every chance you get!!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
So times up
Had court today... It was such a good feeling (not) getting that call today telling me people are angry or angrier at me for something I wrote here... Especially after the news I got in court... So that's it my lawyer is a dumb fuck... I don't know why I've been going through this for three fucking years since the same bargain is on the table and now my high priced stupid two faced lawyer is changing his fucking story about what he said and what he can do and if we can win the trial... We can't which is not what he said in the first place... Oh well off to jail 120 days, losing my license for 2 years unless I don't take the bargain and try to go to trial... But the end result will be 1 year and loss my license forever... I knew this in the first place my faggot lawyer told me NO, but now he's saying he never said that and blah blah blah so what... fuck it fuck them and so on.
First I want to say... This is a blog... A online diary... And it is anonymous for the most part... If you know who I am its because I told you, and therefore supposed to be a friend... However as hard as it is to understand me I don't understand why people that call you their friends INTENTIONALLY try to hurt you.... But whatever. So I got a call about my last post that some old friends read it and it offended them, I don't know how because it had nothing to do with them... However, lemme clarify one thing.... These posts are how I feel in at the moment and those of you who know me... Know that changes in seconds, I don''t deserve a thank you, like I said in the last post, it would have been nice to hear as it was nice too see him, and I know I know I owe him thanks and I have given it, long time ago... I addressed him in no bad way unless you read it wrong, however the person I addressed as a clone of me, FUCK EM... And you can take that to the bank, his family has caused nothing but hardship to mine so whatever... If you want to hate me... Then hate me, I've grown accustomed to it... But do it for the legitimate reasons god knows there is plenty of them
Monday, November 14, 2005
I used too
I used too have so many friends... or so I thought... I used too have so much potential or so I thought... I can't believe some things that I am called selfish for... there is a band out there... that is about to be signed by Atlantic records... yeah you guessed it a composite of my old one, unreal... not that I think they deserve it or not... I won't comment on that except to say "mother fucker you will never be me" no matter how hard he tries.... what I will say... is for three of those members A. would never have the balls to be in a band B. never have made it as far as they did C. Never even fucking knew each other.... if it wasn't for... you guessed it... ME... I went to see one of them earlier this week, to talk about other things, and mind you, plus don't get me wrong... I loved this guy (in a total hetero way you sick fuck) I built the original band around my love for him and his brother and theirs for me, and gave them the confidence to do it... as they did for me... yet he mentioned all the good things that are happening to him with it, and I believe they will get signed and make it big... because that’s the story if my life... and I got no thank you, I got no sorry... I got nothing except "check me out"... man did me and this person become good friends back then... and mind we all know I am know saint, but at the very least I deserve a thank you... if not acknowledgement that "the clone wanna be" is stealing my act... if not my lyrics... WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR I ACCEPT WHAT I SEE 'CAUSE AS LONG AS I LOOK I KNOW IT’S STILL ME...
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Well I believe I have written the words and melody to two of the songs to the band I am getting ready to start with... This is always the weird time, because you are unsure if they are going to like them and let you join the band, when you have already decided you want to join... Otherwise you wouldn't go through the trouble of working your ass off on this stuff... The melody is pretty cool if I do say so myself, they just seem a bit "rhymie"... Of course I have written stuff in the past and went "yeah.. That is a kick ass mother fu**ing song"... This time I have not... The first song he gave me... I had a bitch of a time with the melody, I finally believe I got it.. But have yet to record it and ask opinions... Which I always get a mixed review anyway and I no longer go to work and ask those people any more either, which was a on going ritualistic custom... Anyway I will record them and post them here temporarily to get opinions... Please be brutal... Thanx