You know those movies that have a bad sequel that comes out ten or twenty years from the originals that people have been waiting for but they are an absolute disappointment? ... well this is one of them . . . only it’s not a movie and the original
wasn’t a blockbuster . . . I don’t know where to begin so I am just going to try and let it flow . . . One of my best friends in the world showed up today. He lives in a different state and has for a very long time . . . he has very little idea about what has happened with me and the rest of my “best friends” that have been around the whole time . . . the cool thing is (which is what friends are made of) he does not care about things that do not involve him . . . I mean he may have an opinion and he may think that I was wrong in the actions that lead to the demise of my friendships . . . but he loves me just the same . . . I am leaving the state tomorrow. And it just figures he’d show up today. Of course there will be a party thrown for him. That’s what we do. And he could only visit with me for about an hour . . . it hurt . . . I won’t lie. It hurt when he was leaving . . . because I belong at that party . . . but I couldn’t hold him up from going . . . and of course I wouldn’t try . . . He brought his wife when he came to see me . . . and it should have been of little significance but it wasn’t . . . I have never met his wife . . . and we spent a mere hour together . . . but while I was at the computer trying to burn him a CD of my music (which never worked . . . some tech huh?) She came up and sat next to me . . . and said . . . without being prompt . . . “maybe you should come with us” . . . that touched me . . . she must have liked me which means people still do like me . . . I had to reply with a heavy heart (she almost brought me to tears with that statement) “I don’t think that will workout sweetheart” . . . and she said something like “oh . . . Well okay . . . I don’t know what’s going on” (which did sound like a bit of a lie but she obviously didn’t know everything . . . But then again who does?) And the subject changed . . . so what’s in a wave you ask? I don’t know . . . I suppose nothing. I have spent years realizing that things will never be as they were and have grown to accept that . . . it just grows so much more difficult when you are face to face with the past . . . I would like to be there with him . . . I would like to change the past . . . I would like things to be different . . . but then again I would like to be a super hero that wears his underwear on the outside of his pants . . .