Tuesday, January 08, 2008

The Bigger Man

I recently got a request from an X-friend on myspace, who wants to be my friend. It isn't hard to find me there especially since I have been using the same handle almost since I started on the internet. However, that isn't the issue... the issue is I have extreme distaste for this person and his whole family, his family has caused nothing but pain to mine and just knowing how these people are, they probably still assume we owe them something when the opposite would be a more accurate explanation. So what's the dilemma? Well at one point this person was a good friend of mine, and we had some good times... He is obviously doing the reaching out, the best way this shit neck knows how. . . would I have rather got an email with some kind words in it - yes - but again I would have to assume he doesn't feel he did anything wrong. So what did he do. . . well this is the question or the dilemma. . . he took something away from me that was the most important thing in my life (no it wasn't a girl). . . I invited him into something that was sacred to me and through manipulation and backstabbing he had me removed - and it became clear later on why - he wanted what I had - he couldn't stand being second fiddle - he never could. . . and I hate him for it. . . Friends do not do that to each other - do they? The thing is, humans make mistakes, they are not infallible, and I have made my fair share and sought forgiveness and still have not received it. So do I ignore the request and act like what some may perceive as a child would, is it really a childish act to disconnect from people that have caused you pain. . . ? the whole situation would be easier to handle if I received some correspondence instead of a simple friend request - but that did not happen - And I am almost certain an apology or even a "sorry about the way things turned out" is not headed my way - most guys don't talk like that - they would assume that the apology is understood from the initial effort - but what was taken from me, in what amounts to a hostile take-over situation, was sacred to me and to date - one of the most if not the most important thing in my life. . .

4 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

take it from me, an old hag, your friend, that when people hurt you, and do it PURPOSEFULLY, fuck them!! Write them off, cut them off, undo yourself from them and go on. i speak from experience and this thing someone stole from you, everyone knows how dear and precious it is to you...ESPECIALLY a friend. He must be a malicious bastard and i would NEVER forgive, NEVER forget.
But that is just me.
Hoping all is well with you...
~C

1/14/2008 8:45 PM  
Blogger The Cowardly Midget said...

Thanks - you are right - fuck him - the answer is in what I wrote

1/17/2008 11:38 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So was your blog about that menga kid? i don't like him. i could only imagine it was him who fucked with you. i really don't like him.

1/27/2008 8:22 PM  
Blogger The Cowardly Midget said...

LOL no it wasn't Rich - actually Rich dug me out and dusted me off of the hole this fucker put me in - Rich actually saw potential in me and treated me with respect (for the most part) - I repayed him by getting pissed at one little thing he did and becoming very out of line - I can see why you would initially say that about Rich - especially after reading his blog - but I assure you Rich is misundersood - He is not arrogant or an asshole - when you are reading his blog you are reading a one sided conversation and if you were to be a part of that conversation and point out his flaws in what he is saying - he would listen - not call you stupid for not agreeing... But again - I have met all different people all over the world and Rich is a product of a small town - But at least its a northeast small town - so he is saveable(sp)

1/27/2008 8:24 PM  

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